I remember the day that I found out that we were going to
have you like it was yesterday; and the day that you were born was the very
best day of my life hands down. Your Daddy and I tried for nearly five years to
have you- it was not an easy road to travel, but oh so worth it since you were
the end result. I can’t even begin to tell you how you have changed my life and
it is all for the better. Being a Mom
makes me want to be a better person and being YOUR Mom is the most fulfilling
and rewarding job ever. I wake up to your precious smiling face and thank God
for you. I can't ever put into words how much you mean to us. But please know that it is A LOT when serving you your milk in your favorite princess sippy trumps
pressing the brew button on the Keurig.
The past year has held quite a few challenges but so many wonderful
moments and memories with you outshine the bad.
You make a great day amazing and a bad day better, especially when you
wrap your little arms around my neck and tell me that you missed me. How blessed am I?
Although a healthy growing girl, we've still had our share
of doctors visits this year- I wish to not repeat them, especially not your
spinal tap when you had a weird virus. Worst Mom moment so far- but you were
charming and brave and only cried a bit and had the ENTIRE staff trying to hunt
you down princess stickers after the procedure. You may not have any idea that
you can have perfect strangers eating out of the palm of your hand, but after
watching you blossom, I completely understand.
Might I add that you are an amazing dose of medicine- both Daddy and I
ended up in the hospital at different times and you were the bright spot that
helped us feel better. How so much
empathy can come out of a little person is beyond me. You tell us not to be sad when you see us cry
and to be brave when you think something is going to hurt us and although we
know it to be, hearing your angelic little voice saying those things is
simultaneously heart wrenching and comforting. You are so amazingly smart and resilient,
flexible and easy going and empathetic and a light to any darkness.
You started PreK (and Vacation Bible
School) this year and are
well on your way to being Valedictorian and Homecoming Queen, I’m sure. You
waltz into the place like you own it (with the tuition we pay, we should….) and
I love to hear about your day when I pick you up. The things that you learn
(both good and bad) are impressive. I know I am biased but how can I not be
proud of you when you point out an octagon or write your name (you’re a lefty,
by the way- you can thank your BopPop and Grandma Helen for that) in better
handwriting than Daddy. Your teacher’s
name is Ms. Miriam and she too has fallen in love with you. I really can’t blame her.
You will find out one day that a Mommy loves her child
unconditionally but you my dear, are something special. You almost glow. You are amazing but not perfect, and you shouldn't be- make mistakes, its how we learn and grow- but please, please,please stay out of my nail polish; play dough goes back into the container with
lids ON (ask me some day how you convinced your Grandma K to eat it like a
cookie) and stickers and permanent marker is meant for paper and only paper. (Stickers
have shown up mysteriously in some crazy places…. Must be the dogs)
I’m not the perfect mom but will be the BEST mom that I can
be to you and help guide you in the BEST life that we can provide for you. I
will make mistakes, and I will lose my patience and even growl at you when I
know that I shouldn't and I will always remind you that I do love you and
apologize when I am truly in the wrong. Never be afraid to say you’re sorry and
really mean it. Don’t ever be afraid to
give an honest compliment (and continue to give them with reckless abandon like
you already do- you probably really made the lady in the grocery store with the
pretty dress’ day) and don’t be afraid to love and tell someone you love
them. Tell your best girl friends, your
boyfriend (gasp, but I know its coming- you will be a heart breaker), your dog
and cat and your family. Love is free
and freeing. Love also hurts, but it
teaches us to be better, stronger and to even love harder.
I hope your passion never fades. Today it is for your
Princess collection (of all sizes, materials and conditions (please forgive the
dogs for altering Aurora’s dress) pizza and girly-girl dresses, someday it will
be shoes and purses (Your dad will roll his eyes and complain when you own 30
pairs of flip flops but it will be out of love- just trust me on this one.) But
if you happen to find a zest for something that is completely off the wall- so
be it- just make sure that your favorite ‘things’ are yours and not something
that you are trying to do or like to impress someone. (As much as I love your
Daddy, I will never be a Laker fan, but he knew that going in…. in fact we
spent our first day of wedded bliss at a basketball game of both of our
favorite teams…. That was over 11 years ago) Your hobbies, likes and dislikes
will make you interesting and uniquely YOU.
Speaking of fervor and zest, you've been planning your birthday
party since the day after you turned three- it will be your dream Ariel the
Mermaid party although scaled down a bit. You get the love of entertaining from
me (I’m Sorry and You’re Welcome)- just remember to always be a gracious host
and take time away from making the food and cleaning up the mess to enjoy the
moment with the people that are there- you never know when they won’t be. I hope the memories of your fourth birthday
will be wonderful. I’m going to fill up your playroom with balloons and
decorate the house even though your party isn’t until next week (and not even
here, might I add)- balloons in your room will be our birthday tradition. I am even going to see if Avery the Elf can
make a visit from the North Pole to pop in and say hello.
Thank you for making the last 1,461 days the best in my
life- I look forward to experiencing the memories that Year Four has in store
for us. We love you so very much Baby
Girl. Happy Birthday.